Lost Girl.(Revised Version).

The last time that I saw you
Alcohol had taken it`s toll,
But the bright girl that I had once played with
Was still alive in you.

Your voice had been a sweet soprano,
The most beautiful in your Class;
But now you stuttered a garbled whisper,
And your hair had turned thin and grey.

Your teacher had warned of disaster
When she found you propping the Bar:
How I wish that time could flow backwards
To return us to who we were.

I have learned that you died and were buried
A year ago today;
I now sit alone in my back room
Recalling two children at play.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
4th. - 5th. April 2014.

Memory. (Revised).

When I opened the window this morning
I thought that I briefly saw you
Admiring the miniature roses.
But then, with a shock, I realized
That it is now more than twenty years
Since you last stood here in my garden,
Your hat tilted over grey eyes,
Your arm hooked loosely in mine.

Such memories are not pale ghosts,
They remind me of transfers printed
On derelict buildings
To remind us of what we have lost.
Nor are they sepia photographs
Stored in dusty albums
That are normally shut and locked.
But whenever I think of you
Memories lose their sepia strangeness
And become suffused with colour,
They are poignant, yet feisty with light.

When I opened the window this morning
I thought that I briefly saw you
Caught in a halo of sunlight.
You stood where you always had stood
When the roses were fully in bloom,
But I had no time to catch your attention,
No time to call out your name.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
April 1st. - 3rd. - 4th. - May 26th. 2014.
June 4th. 2018. 

Short Erotic Poem.

I cannot remember your voice
But your body was special to me,
More valued than the family silver;
Your vagina sweet as a nut
Secreted away by a squirrel:
Your hair a tangled forest
That protected us while we slept.
You clasped my hand in the darkness
Because I was precious to you,
A gift to pack under the coverlet,
And not to write home about.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 29th. 2014.

(1). A Short Story.(Revised Version). (2). Hypatia of Alexandra.

                               1.

                      A Short Story. (Revised Version).


The woman could not afford to bury her child.
The woman did not know the whereabouts of her husband,
nor did she care.
The woman had only herself to rely on.
The child had died unexpectedly in her sleep.
The child was six months old.
The body was kept on ice by the Undertaker for several months.
The woman worked late to earn some extra money.
When the body began to putrefy the funeral took place.
The woman could not pay the bill in full.
The Debt Collector ransacked the woman`s home.
She was left with a small box of clothes, a bed, a single ring cooker,
a pet cat, her wedding ring, some black and white photographs of her family.
The woman was then visited by the police.
The police let her go with a warning.
The woman had sold her car to pay for the funeral.
The car had been abandoned by her husband.
The woman cried in the silence of her home.
That night she considered committing suicide.
The woman was aged just forty.

This just happens to be a true story,
But you will not read about it in the Press.
The woman just happens to be a gypsy
And therefore thought to be a waste of space.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter. 
March 25th. - 26th. - 31st. 2014.
------------------------------------------------------------

                         2.

         Hypatia of Alexandria.


Hypatia

Black water rippling over white marble

Blood on the city streets

Locked in their orbits the distant stars look down

Ice glints on moonlit rooftops

Dogs sniffing and licking scraps of human offal

Blood on the floor of the sanctuary

Weeping Willows dropping sprigs of memory into black water

Monks wearing daggers

Astrolabes smashed into fragments

Hypatia raped and murdered inside the cathedral

Her works destroyed

Her face cut to the bone

Black water rippling over white marble

Memorials drowned in the wide sea


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 24th. 2014.

(1) Her Timed Entrance. Version No.2. (2) Ludic is Love.

                  1.

       Her Timed Entrance.


Quietly through the labyrinth of time
You followed the clues I had scattered,
Your footsteps, although muffled,
Discerned at ten years distance,
Their soft sure tread
Praised from the first.
your gently whispered words,
A far away enchantment;
Your elfin features, a shadow in my mirror.

And now you have arrived
To the minute,
On the very day expected
At the meeting of two paths.

I am hoping that our planets are aligned,
Preferably with the near perfect precision
That atomic clocks are tuned to oscillate.
From now on we should chart the course together.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
February 23rd. 1966. - December 29th. 2012.
February 20th. 2014. - March 21st. - 23rd. 2014.

---------------------------------------------

                       2.

            Ludic is Love.


Ludic is love
Like a kiss in the dark
Unexpected and unrepeated
But for all times remembered;
Or the smile on the face of an infant
Caught dipping fidgety fingers
Surreptitiously
Into a bowl of blancmange;
Or the instinctive moves of a dancer
That hush the babbling crowd. -
Last night we ran through the garden
Frenetically laughing and crying
Like lost souls at a shindig
Spotlit by the moon.
Such moments are rare indeed,
Rarer than untainted honey,
But without them our lives are worth nothing.
Ludic is love.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
21st. - 22nd. March 2014.

A Grief.

                     1.

How can I write about grief?
It is almost impossible.
How can I write about grief without telling a lie?.
How can I write a sentence that is not anodyne?

There is just too much sorrow in my life at the moment.
The weight of all this pain is almost unbearable,
Suffocating
                  Like an overcoat thrown over my head
Covering my eyes, my ears, the whole of my face,
                                                              My body.
Too many deaths,
                           Too many griefs dropped out of the blue
Unexpected,
                           An unstoppable avalanche of deaths.

Faces that were here suddenly not here anymore,
                                           dropped out of sight.
The local streets crammed tight with new, much younger
                                                                            faces,
Strangers,
The old ones deleted entirely,
                                             Wiped out beyond yearning,
Taking my comfort zone with them,
              That old warm blanket riddled with tiny fag holes,
Chucked into the landfill bin;
                            Thrown out with a bag of old keepsakes,
The knick knacks of long gone lives.

                         2.

And you, my Thorn Flower, just one lost among many,
For you I have cried each night for forty years,
My friend, my partner at the campfire dances.

Your friends gathered in twos and threes to nurse you.
Sat silent and watched the snow thaw while you slept.
Sat silent counting the minutes, the hours break slowly,
We, who were more uncertain, more terrified than you.

Today I still keep watch for you, my Thorn Flower,
Placing a candle by the kitchen window;
Listening for the knock that never comes.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
April 9th. - 12th. 2013.
February 20th. - March 17th. 2014. 

Dante and Beatrice in Florence. Poem No.2./ Dante - A Painting.

      Distilled fear terrorises this vision of perfection,
A tumult of lonely confusion snagged on the townscape
Like a fraught dream that is yet to materialise, erupt, overwhelm,
    Dissolve the quiet hinterland of the poet`s imagination
         With an abrupt squall of chaotic emotion.

      Proud Beatrice walked serenely through the city,
      Then turning briskly into the crowded courtyard
        That fronted the grand house of the Portinari,
Offered no comment as the great doors banged behind her.

Entranced by a wistful smile, Dante, her Courtly admirer,    
   Has long since come to terms with vanquished hope
And the power that her venal father has over his daughter.
The poet wept
   Then continued his lonely walk by the river Arno;
The sight of a bevy of swans for a moment consoled him,
                         Assauged his sorrow;
But his fears had already confronted that savage Inferno
   Where thwarted lovers scream out their visceral pain.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
August 7th. 2009. March 23rd. 2010.
March 11th. - 16th. - 30th. 2014. - October 7th. 2014.