Mill Hill Ridgeway. (Newly Completed Poem).

(The greenest of suburbs are haunted by ghosts)


I love to walk in these fields at midnight,
Feel the earth breathing beneath my feet,
A stressed out mother deep in slumber.

I love to sit still on the south facing slope,
Watch galaxies pulse through magical skies,
A trillion heart beats in the tumult of space.

I love especially the warm June nights
When I can hear wandering foxes cry
Over distances only the fiercest would travel.

This is my dream time, private and holy,
When I can look further than daylight allows,
I sense the depths lost far beneath silence
Where linger the echoes of ancestral voices,

Labourers who gleaned where middle class houses
Now litter lost fields once yellow with corn,
Close by Wilberforce built a plain brick chapel,
A Low Church Parish for hard up farmers.

I love to walk on these hills at midnight
And dream of my forebears struggling for bread.
The slopes overlook where the old farm nestled
Among English elms more graceful than spires.

But the trees are all gone, and the smug little houses
Now huddle together, row upon row
In the valley where horses once whinnied their praise.

Oh I wish I could bulldoze those snide little semis
And restore the valley to tractor and plough.

Meanwhile I walk the last of the green hills,

Down tracks where shadows seem to whisper my name. 

 Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
May 5th. - 6th. 2018. - September 1st. - 2nd.  -  5th.- 6th. 2020.
Completed October 16th. - 25th.2022.

Listening to You Read. (Revised).

               Listening to You Read

(In Memoriam Anne Sexton and John Lennon).


Listening to you read I become American,
A citizen of that eastern seaboard world
I dearly wanted to move to,
               Wanted to be native of when young;
A citizen who was born and bred mid way
On a ship                         or a slow Dakota.

A citizen                    but never quite at home.

                                          That was before
Three bullets had hit their mark,
Filleting,
                Shredding John`s back
As though it were a curtain of rice paper,
A curtain so thin it was instantly torn apart.

His still beating heart attached to nothing
                                                   sustainable,
Danced out of time in the surgeon`s
                                            delicate fingers
As he tried to fix it to the torn aorta. -
The heart skipped and danced like a small
                             child playing hop scotch,
Skipping from square to square,
                           From moment to moment
Until the world veered crazily out of orbit
And all the numbered squares blurred into one.

From that day on I feigned to hate America,
To hate myself for having loved too well
The Manhattan neighbourhood where Lennon died.
I turned my back on all I had once been,
Erased all dreams of southern California,
Redacted memories of New York City,
And told my friends I had never seen the place.
But then tonight I heard your smoke cracked voice
On a scratchy tape you made in nineteen seventy:
    -  Your poems keen as scalpels  - blunt as bullets.

Anne, listening to you read
          I recovered something I did not want to know,
That I am not a foreigner where the pilgrims landed,
That I was taught to think and write by East Coast poets,
Yourself, young Sylvia Plath, and Robert Lowell.
I have always thought myself an American poet
But a misplaced love of England kept me here in London,

A vibrant town perhaps, but never snug and homely. -

I have often strolled by the Thames on wintry evenings

             Alone and missing the talk of American friends..


 Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
August 28th. - 29th. - 31st. 2020. - October 13th. 2020.-

November 7th. 2020. - January 24th. - 25th. 2021.  
Born in London, Since my early teens I have had dual nationality. I like being an international person, a "Citizen of Nowhere" as Theresa May once pronounced, but I have deep roots in place and culture. My roots spread thousands of miles. - I thought this poem was going to be written in two parts, but I have only needed to add two lines to complete it.

(1) Washed Out by Rain. (A Lament at the Autumnal Equinox) (2) September.

                        1.

   Washed Out by Rain.


The world is silver grey.
Wall paper world.
The rain falling steadily,
Washing out the sunlight
Creating unreality.
The world is silver grey.

I look out at the world,
The wallpaper flatness,
The silver grey flatness
Of the world outside my window,
The world outside my house,
My home,
My hermit cell.
I look upon an empty street
But do not miss the people.

I look out at the greyness,
The silver screen vacuity
Of a world without horizons,
A world without a soul.
A world emptied of bright colour,
The laughter of school children. -

The rains dissolve clear vision,

Clarity fading into strangeness.

I look out through the window
At a rain dashed empty street scene
Shrunk to stencilled flatness
Like a pattern on the wall.
September has come early,
We enter the season of sad dreams.

I have learned to live alone,
To trust in my own reality,
To ignore the drab grey scene
Outside my front room window. -
Wallpaper world
Stencilled on my retina,
I walk away from you.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter,
August 26th. - September 22nd. 2020.
                   
                    2.

            September.


Tomorrow starts September;
   It is not autumn yet, but
I can smell the backyard fires.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
August 31st. 2020. 

Trevor J Potter's Art: August 30th. 2013. (New Version).

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Trevor J Potter's Art: My Lost Gypsy Brother. (New Longer Version).

Trevor J Potter's Art: My Lost Gypsy Brother. (New Longer Version).: Today is a day of bad bad news, No wonder the wind shook the windows all night, The rain blowing in under the eaves And soaking the beds...

My Lost Gypsy Brother. (New Longer Version).

Today is a day of bad bad news,
No wonder the wind shook the windows all night,
The rain blowing in under the eaves
And soaking the bedside furniture;
Today is a day of bad bad news.

I remember you sat by my bedside one winter
When I was laid low with a bout of flu
Unable to sit up straight and talk.
The seat you sat on has been wrecked by the rain
And will have to be sawn up and binned.

Today is a day of bad bad news,
But you always said it would rain when you died
Because you were loved by the angels.
I thought you were telling another daft story
But last night the rain was torrential.

The stories you told were always just daft,
And your mind never understood logic,
You were a true gypsy lad who lived the old ways
Until the Tories made that life unlawful.
They dubbed you a scrounger, a liar, a cheat,
So you took to raw spirits and perished of cancer.
Today is a day of bad bad news.

Doctor Johnson defined the Tories as bandits
In his Dictionary of the English Language,
A definition still true after hundreds of years.
Doctor Johnson was kinder to the old gypsy folk,
They were good honest nomads, neither thieves
                                                       nor marauders:
They were refugee soldiers from eastern regimes.

But today is not a day for anger old friend,
It is a day for tears and the planting of flowers,
In the fields you played in when a youngster.
Wild flowers that will spread over moorland and meadow,
A garden vivacious with bees and with birdsong;
A garden where you might trace the footprints of angels.

Today is a day of bad bad news.
The wind shook the windows and doors all night,
The rain forcing entry under the eaves.
I hope you could see the stars when you died.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter. 
August 21st. - 25th. 2020.
For Mcgill died this morning in his early fifties.
I had to write this poem simply because my heart was breaking.

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