Tuesday 5 October 2021

It Takes Two to Dream.- A Lyric.

I dreamt of you all night
But we have never met
Only spoken on the telephone.

I dreamt of you all night.

Perhaps we could be partners
If we meet - Or useful friends -
Or simply wave across a busy street.

I dreamt of you all night.

Is that your face
Outside my bedroom window
Or just a trick of the morning light?

Would I recognise you if we meet?


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
October 5th. 2021.

Friday 1 October 2021

Maiko Beach, Harima Province, October. (Completed Version).

Storms and earthquakes stretched the trees
Into shattered hands scratching at a sky
Wounded by the dying light
Of a cold October sun. I enter this picture
                                                       at dusk
Just like Alice drifting through the mirror,
Dissolving the skin thick glass of perception
With outstretched hands that reach out for
                                                     the prize
Of a more interesting world than the one we
                                                         live in.


A maze would be far easier to negotiate than
                                                   this forest,
I find that every path is blocked by gnarled
                                              trunks of trees
And their ancient interlaced branches.
The pale blue bay remains a hazy mirage,
Slowly darkening as the dusk comes on,
Four minutes earlier each October evening.


I planned that the distant boats should be my 
                                                          rescuers,
But now they must remain forever out of reach,
Two small sails heading to the far shore
Where the grass, of course, is greener.
I step back from the picture and rub my eyes.
Like Alice I have to come to terms with life
Now that the sun has set, and my world shrinks
                                                back to one room
In the narrow shell of a suburban semi detached.
But why can I now see people and their houses
In that painted wood, that I failed to see before?
Perhaps my terms of reference were too shallow.
Perhaps I only saw what I wanted to see.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
1st. - 2nd. October 2021.

Poem No. 10. Hiroshige print illustrating October in my 2021 Calendar.

Friday 24 September 2021

Seashore at Hoda. (Revised).

 In the background
The pastel sea is calm
Speckled with white sailed boats.

In the foreground
Rough waves scourge the rocks
With turbulent whips of salt.

Two lone men walk the narrow path
Between the broken cliff face and the sea.
They are separated by a gulf in time
At least a century wide,
Unbridgeable to them,
But to me - visible in a single glance.
The cliff face towering high above their heads
Appears to have been gouged by giant claws,
Or the teeth of dragons fighting for their lives.
There is only the slightest breeze this evening,
Just enough to keep the boats in motion.

September paleness,
The sea a pastel blue
That I have only seen in films and fading dreams,
And the sky is split into three shelf like layers,
Indigo - Duck Egg Blue - a misty shade of Orange.
The darkest colour - a thick band at the top of the page.

The distant shoreline seems blurred and indistinct,
A smudge of green indicating hills
With perhaps a town or two.
And high above all, transparent in the orange light,
Mount Fuji stands, a god without a conscience,
An ice cold Buddha keeping all his secrets,
Sketched with three thin lines of printers ink.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
September 24th. 2021.
Poem No.9, Month of September, ref my calendar illustrated by Hiroshige prints. 

Thursday 23 September 2021

September Sunset. (Revised).

Autumn in the air. Although I refuse to take note
Of the slow decline of late summer sunlight
Into a watery softness,
                                     I have switched the heating on
                                                          from time to time
And packed my sunglasses away until next year.
I cannot yet face the sadness of falling leaves,
Rain drops on my dirty windows meandering like tears.

                                        I do not want summer to end
And so I try to imagine that the days are still as warm 
As in the last week of July.
Then the slow easing down into deep August.
Then the parks filled with children running wild,
Their mothers picnicking at a safe distance.
Dogs, scampering off their knotted leashes,
Chased by irate owners.

Yet already I am nostalgic for mid winter pastimes,
Tchaikovsky on the CD Player conjuring magic snow,
Books open on the kitchen table, the pages, stained and
                                                                           thumbed,
Bent back to mark some paragraphs of interest,
Whole sentences underlined with pen or pencil.
I rarely open books in spring or summer.
When the sun is high books are left on shelves,
Their ageing covers fading in the glare.

But September is here now, neither summer nor winter.
A picturesque interlude, a time of waiting, of watching
                                                                       the apples ripen.
(Smart children sneak into my neighbours garden
To clamber quietly up into the branches).
And so, having closed my books, I sit by the door and listen
To the quiet voices of strangers in the street
Strolling at ease, unhurried while the daylight lasts.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
September 12th. - 13th. - 14th. - 23rd.- 24th.  2021.

Thursday 9 September 2021

Primitive London, The Scene in the One Tun Goodge Street. (Revised).

Watching that old film was a mistake.
My pictured friends - blurred images
Animated to an analogue soundtrack.
My on screen presence - confined to a Scene
Long since revised for the history buffs.
Truth left rotting on the Cutting Room floor
To make more space for reductive legends,
Legends filtered through static and snowfall
That reconfigure a well known view.
Everything I knew turned upside down
To fake a sanitised story.

When I review mementoes of the nineteen sixties
I view them as shadows, the shadows of dead dreams
Darkening the gentrified inner city neighbourhoods
With stains of hidden histories.
When I wander through Soho, or Fitzroy Square,
I search for landmarks that are no longer there,
Airbrushed out of time,
Their relevance disregarded.
This was my home patch, my manor so to speak,
When I was a wannabe poet and actor
Trying to get laid, and sometimes writing songs.

I was twenty years old, I knew every backyard,
Every cul-de-sac, every alley and stair well.
I knew that fetid archway near Rathbone Place
Where junkies hunched close in clandestine huddles
In fear of the shadows of passing strangers.
I watched them slope off to derelict stables
Where they slept on floors in old sleeping bags.

I spent some afternoons in the Greek Cafe,
And that is where I first met my girlfriend.
She offered me an apple across the round table
As we sat sipping Turkish Coffee.

Watching that film was a bad mistake.
Some faces on screen are lifelike ghosts
That I can pin names to, but never meet.
Big John is dead, so too is Jailer Mick,
And also, I suppose, kids I can`t now name,
Scoffing at the camera to mock their audience,
And that right now - alas - is me.
And they were right to scoff, 
I can no longer lord it in that crowded Bar
Although my image stands out on the screen.
I am a passing stranger - an old face at the door.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
August 13th. - 14th. - September 8th. - 9th. 2021 - March 9th. 2022.

Monday 30 August 2021

Limbo Land. (Corrected Version).

Cold for late August.
Although in full leaf
Trees appear starkly desolate
Against the grey sky.
Perhaps they will change into the barbed webs of winter
More quickly than we would expect.

Since that bad accident
It seems that you may need a carer
For much of your adult life.
A girl who suffers fierce seizures
Can rarely be left untended
For more than an hour or so.
The doors that were kept wide open for you
Slammed shut when your injuries were known.

I sit alone by the window
Watching the trees bend and twist in the wind
Like dancers with chains on their feet.
We two are shackled,
Kept far apart by the hidden fault
Deep in the folds of your brain.
After nearly two years in the hospital
Your home coming will be strictly monitored.

I sit alone by the window.
The oaks in the garden opposite
Have not been hacked by a tree surgeon
For maybe a decade or more.
I note how strong they have grown
In the years since they last were treated.
Indeed they have grown taller than the houses.
At dawn and sunset they fill with birdsong.

Cold for late August.
So like a mausoleum
This house echoes to my voice
As I talk to myself in my loneliness.
Perhaps this Fall the funds will be made ready
To make safe spaces for you to come home to.
Waiting is not a chore
Either of us do well.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter. 
August 30th. - September 2nd. - 7th. 2021.
I like to write how people, self included, usually speak, not constructing a logical sequence of ideas, statements and images, but in a natural free flow. This poem is dedicated to Ivy who has been in hospital since early 2020 because of her epilepsy.

Saturday 28 August 2021

Trevor J Potter's Art: The Raw Coffee Bean.(Revised Ending)

Trevor J Potter's Art: The Raw Coffee Bean.(Revised Ending): Last night I chewed on a coffee bean, Crunching it between my front teeth Until the flavours oozed out                                  ...

On the Beach.