Making Lists.

Making lists is something most folk do
to try to fathom who they really are.

List A. 

I am 14 months old,
walking to Violette Szabo
across the front room carpet.

It is now my 2nd. Birthday,
plasticine tarts a disappointment,
no spitfires overhead.

I am 3 and a half, or nearly,
lifting high a huge bouquet
to a stooping Joyce Redman.

I have now turned 8 and a bit,
hearing an interesting story
of a girl who loved two sailors.

11 years and a day,
barred from playing a boy king
by a father wary of actors.

I am not yet quite 13,
and with Thorny for the first time
in a draughty gypsy wagon.

14 just come and gone,
I am singing the naughty Hansel
in Humperdinck`s Hansel und Gretel.

Now I have reached 15,
I must guide the Sugar Plum Fairy
around a stage close to the Angel.

16, my voice broke late,
like a mollusc I curl up tightly,
afraid to get up and whisper.

I am a wild and nerdy 18,
arrested by a kind policeman
for parking my seat in Whitehall.

21, a man of the world already,
writing my first love poem
to a girl I had yet to meet.

22, and with the Beatles.
Banging a tray in the studio,
or was it a tambourine?

Pause.

List B.

Fast forward through the crystal,
grey clouds smudge the pictures
that now slowly reform.

At 35, cold and wet in Ireland,
lying face down on the border,
bullets whiz over my shoulder.

A divorce. An argument with my lawyer.
Some extra mural babies
not spoken about to the neighbours.

72, grey haired and balding,
I still do not know which sailor
is my actual father.

I am 74 next Easter,
the girl in my first love poem
just called me on the phone.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
April 7th. 2017.

Trevor J Potter's Art: Two Poems. (1) Sufi Love Poem.(2) A self Portrait....

Trevor J Potter's Art: Two Poems. (1) Sufi Love Poem.(2) A self Portrait....:                   1 .      Sufi Love Poem. Your love is the only love That heals me. What was not is annihilated. What always was   ...

Two Poems. (1) Sufi Love Poem.(2) A self Portrait.

                 1.

     Sufi Love Poem.


Your love is the only love
That heals me.
What was not is annihilated.
What always was      abides.


Only with you am I healed,
Contented.
Only with you am I truly
Alive.
Lonely nights are ruled by chaos.
Loving nights   are calm and still.
What was not is annihilated.
What always was      abides.


In your beginning
                                   I was with you.
In my beginning
                              you were with me.
When lost to you
My voice is crippled;
When bound to you
We transcend music.
What was not is annihilated.
What always was      abides.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 28th. 2017.

The lines printed in italics are an adaptation of an old Sufi saying.
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                 2.

      A Self Portrait.


I belong to three cultures,
English - Russian - Romany,
They wage an internecine war
Deep in my personality
As I struggle to differentiate
Between public and private morality,
Between what is good and what is bad,
What is sane and what is mad,
Between what is true and what is false,
Between mesmerism and reality.
And yet I could never be complete
Without this warfare deep inside
That swamps and holes long held ideals,
Then sails them home against the tide.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
April 3rd. 2017. 

Trevor J Potter's Art: (1). Selected Poems of Yevtushenko, First Edition....

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(1). Selected Poems of Yevtushenko, First Edition. (2). Stage Prop.(Revised).

                     1

Selected Poems of Yevtushenko.


This book smells of decay,
The pages are yellow,
The covers have ceased to be white.

The boy who bought this book
Is now aged seventy three,
Deep in the fall of the years.

For the book this is unimportant.
The book has its own agenda.
The book can understand nothing.

The book cannot read the words
That dance across its pages,
The book is a parcel of shadows.

The book only fills with light
When the pages are slowly turned
In the hands of a careful reader.

Unread it is merely a package
Of symbols that maybe important.

When the book is closed up tight
It ceases to have a meaning
Beyond its outward appearance.



The man has loved this book
For more than fifty years.

Sometimes it is a talking point.
Sometimes it is neglected.

It has rested on his bookshelf
Through all the changing seasons,

From the first snowdrop of springtime
To the final yellow leaf.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 10th. - 11th. - 13th. 2017.
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                     2.

             Stage Prop.


Left over from Pericles
A piece of chamois leather,
Something to clean old
                    windows with,
Rub out distortions,
Bring the long view into
                                  focus.
Even when every hope is lost,
Sunk deep into the ocean,
Despair is not an option.

One day an old song whistled
In a city full of strangers
Will remind us of lost friends
And tell us who we are.
A song from yesterday
Rehaping our tomorrows.

This stage prop, long put by,
Is just a cloth to wipe the windows,
To clean off dust and soot.
But as I study it for flaws
I recall the smiles and tears
From a season half forgotten:
The smiles of actors playing Shakespeare;
The tears of their farewells.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 27th. 2017.

My House.

My house is part of my mind.
The gadgets that pack my house
are facets of my intellect,
keys to who I am.
Likewise my books,
my collages and paintings,
my piano and my harp.

The porcelain bowls,
the plastic cups,
the chairs, the tables,
are telling tales about me
that only strangers hear,
I am deaf to what they say
because they are my friends,
my cheek by jowl companions
throughout each night and day.

Strangers wander in and out,
check the boiler, change a tap,
repair the garage awning,
mop the floor,
 yet they see what I don`t see,
a world in perfect miniature,
my sacred dreams laid bare,

The personal is deeply sacred,
something we forget,
or turn away from at our peril.
When you walk into my house,
you break into my dreams,
breach my imagination,
become part of who I am.
A trace of you will stick
even though the memories falter.

Knock on the door and enter,
but please leave your shoes upon the step.


Trevor John Karsavin Potter.
March 22nd. - 23rd. 2017.

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